Argh, it’s coming to the crunch. It HURTS.
Due to the digital distribution lead time for an album we have to make sure all the music is sorted this week. I’ve made a list. I have a few last bits of vocal to look at. Want to see if I can get them all finished tomorrow so I’m having an early night to rest the ol’ vocal chords.
I’ve really been knocked out of my groove since Sunday. I tried doing my usual run-through, singing/half performing some tracks. All I could think of were these imagined stares of disapproval. What am I doing? In which of these two worlds am I meant to fit? My artistic heart resides in one quite plainly. But I also have a heart to serve my church community. I have a divided heart. ‘Dividedness’ is weakness and I feel most definitely weakened.
This could not have come at a more inopportune time. I need to be fierce this week. One last push. If I don’t shine here I will regret it forever. NOLZA!
This weekend’s vlog is proving difficult. I just seemed to be doing a lot of waffling and not being nearly as engaging as I was in the last one. Turns out there’s a lot more to discuss about our image than I had first imagined. There is a specific theme for Mirrorball Swing, but in general the Project draws from multiple influences. Some of our look isn’t even from the fashion world: it’s inspired by graphic design and print media. Try explaining that in vlog form without sounding like a droning old degree lecturer.
I didn’t have boring lecturers, actually, but you get my point.
While writing this I have somehow managed to rescue my vlog structure so it seems vaguely relevant and watchable. I also think listening to this on repeat really helped. Thank you, Andrew Pants.
I know I should be feeling excited and charged, but I can get to feeling that after this week, I think. I am determined to enjoy the experience. Just not til Monday!